Gates, Joy and Warfare

A few days ago I noticed I was angry at my husband, not because of any specific thing he did but I was just angry!

I will be on the bed with thoughts running through my mind, the more I think about what he has done wrong…past, present, future and even perceived, the more angry I get.

The first day when I was about to go to bed, I said, “Holy Spirit this is your son. I bring him and all these emotions to you, I can not be carrying anger like this.” I felt better before I slept off.

Woke up the next morning and bam! I began all over again. This time it was bigger than the previous day. I was giving him monosyllabic answers, he thought, maybe I was tired from handling the children’s shenanigans (it was the weekend) so he let me be.

This went on for about three days. Sunday night, I was following the replay of a praise session on YouTube(Covenant Nations) and pastor Poju said, “You open the gates to breakthrough with praise, when you’re about to receive from God, the devil tries to make you shut your gates by bringing anger, bitterness e.t.c to you through things or people. If you give in to it, you shut the gates and miss the blessing/harvest.” He said, that is warfare.”

I was shook that was when I realized I was in a warfare and did not even know it. With that knowledge, I took control of my emotions immediately(something I was struggling to do earlier) and till today I have been so joyful, to the point I keep catching myself thinking, did something big happen? How come I feel so happy?

I have always thought warfare is noisy and loud… I have realized it is subtle and silent. If we are not careful, it will steal and destroy things and we will not know it.