Wahala or Worship?

I have 4 children and I am someone who loves her space like kilode! You can imagine enjoying personal space with 4 children of different ages with different wants.

Anyway, I took my leave this January for a personal retreat. I wanted to be alone and just talk to God but my last baby (1yr+) wasn’t cooperating, she just wanted to play. I was getting frustrated and anxious that the day would be wasted. I was complaining to the Holy Spirit about it.

I finally was able to give her to my help so I can do important things… The Holy Spirit told me, “your identity is in what Jesus did, not in what you do for God. Playing with your child is worship to me, the activities you see as important are not as important as me seeing you spend time with your child. I was shocked! I just jejely went to carry her and continued her activities with a different perspective…instead of seeing it as a disturbance, I saw it as worship and when her siblings came back from school, I gladly stayed with them answering their plenty questions instead of locking myself in my room with my phone and Bible like I usually do.

I still want my personal space most times but when I want to get frustrated now, I remember, giving them attention is not only important to them but to God as well and it calms me down.